I woke up today worried, anxious, stressing out. I think my hormones are wacky the past few days. I feel a little depressed---the same way I sometimes feel on day 3 of my period. Just feel kind of blah, bored, unmotivated, and it doesn't help that there's a Law & Order Criminal Intent (with Vincent D'Onofrio) marathon on today! I love Detective Goren!
Today's worries: Money, work, facing the day, lack of motivation, and "spinning" the baby (see Jim's post below).
I know none of this will matter the moment I see my son's face, feel his skin against mine, breastfeed, see him smile for the first time, etc. I know I will have a whole new set of worries after he gets here but I've also been assured that being a parent will be the most amazing experience of my life and have no doubt about that.
I am feeling impatient, excited, terrified, elated, anticipatory, and tired. It's not quite as bad as it sounds. I would guess that these are normal things to be feeling right now. Life is about to change a lot!
So, time to lie low, watch my show, maybe go for a walk, pet the cats, make some cookies, take a nap, and get ready for this little monkey to come into our lives when he's good and ready!
3 comments:
Greta,...tucking sleepy Tris into bed tonight, he wrapped his arms around my neck and said, "Please snuggle with me for a minute..." and he's 10! and, though I had lots of other things I wanted to go and do, how could I refuse my little monkey. You will know EXACTLY what I am talking about.
Love
Auntie T
OK and I also want to add:
"One day you're waiting for the sky to fall/the next you're dazzled by the beauty of it all..."
Yet another Bruce Cockburn quote for you...
Love
T
Thanks, Teri!!!!
Post a Comment